C is turning five next week. A is beginning to walk. Millions of small moments, a few major ones, and a dash of hormones are making me a bit sentimental. I'm trying to turn my mood around and realizing I may be putting more energy into the things I think make me happy (maybe just by convincing myself that something is missing) and not enough into the things that actually do. So let's break it down with a chart.
What I think will make me happy vs. What makes me happy
perfection reasonable expectations with attainable steps
grand gestures presence
chivalry unconditional love
nicer stuff gratitude
big step consistency
spontaneity structure
more coffee square meals
housework running
procrastinating embracing gratifying work
motivating snuggling
Not that we need to be all steady all of the time, but I need a little less self-induced kookoo in my life.
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